I'm a big believer in being healthy-mind, body, and soul.
Sometimes though it's hard to have the stars align though and have your mental health, match up with your physical health, and spiritual health.
And oh boy, am I struggling with being physically healthy.
It's not that I can't make it happen, lose the weight I need, build the muscle properly, eat right, etc. I am capable. I can do it.
What is happening is the fear of past mistakes, past mishaps.
Mentally and spiritually I am a place I don't think I could have imagined, a year, two year, three years ago. And I am scared to give up that happiness I've struggled to attain, through all sorts of drama, through situations that should never have occurred, and through my own mind.
Going backwards is a huge fear I have, and I think a lot of people have, yet we dwell in the past, look to the future and leave the present passing us by.
So, slow and steady, maintaining control and letting go when I can't control, small changes and I'll move forward, regain the "body" I had, and in the end be better for it. Why? Because I won't be the militant miserable girl who I used to be when I did it before, but I'll be able to recognize my progress, celebrate the small victories, and teach myself how to maintain this for my life.
Man needs difficulties; they are necessary for health.